Sunday, January 26, 2020

And today's song that stirred my heart this morning was "Guide My Feet, Lord."



I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love. Ephesians 4:1

So yesterday I did a bunch of my favorite things in one fell swoop: wandering around a winter desert lined with blue and purple ridges edged with shots of sunlight, listening to thoughtful souls tell their own stories and backsides of stories like how there used to be a toll road running behind the western range of Tucson with its own highway robber, and of course, picking up trash, great big sturdy blue bags of trash, twelve of them.

It was a mishmash group of folk. The biannual All the Way to the Border cleanup is sponsored by Rancho Sierra Vista de Sasabe with help from the Alter Valley Conservation Alliance, Arizona Department of Transportation, Trico Electric Cooperative and Pima County/Tucson Recycling and Waste Services. We were joined by Border Patrol agents, police cadets, curious tourists, and a group of middle school students.

I was with a truckload of volunteers from Humane Borders. Truck Number Ten, to be precise.

Humane Borders is “totally committed to saving desperate people from a horrible death by dehydration and exposure and to creating a just and humane environment in the borderlands.”  And they are also committed to humility and gentleness and patience. A lot of speaking truth in love that we might be heard.

And Rebecca had a great story about being heard, as we bounced along the highway.

She and her partner were doing the Europe thing, and because they didn’t quite understand all of the details, they had landed in a first class car on the train even thought they had second-class tickets. Eventually they were found out, and sent back to find a proper seat.

Way back. And the train jostled, and they had huge suitcases that banged and bumped into other passengers’ knees and toes and the train was really full, and there was a lot of banging and bumping. At last they wobbled their way to the very last car where they found two empty seats, not next to each other. And maybe from weariness or discouragement or whatever, Rebecca didn’t even try a little bit to really be heard in anything comprehensible, but rather she blurted in loud English, “Are these seats taken?”

And one of the Italian men let her have it, addressing not only Rebecca and her friend, but the entire crowded car, and he expressed disdain, as only can be done in Italian with lots of hand emphasis, how arrogant Americans are, dragging their heavy suitcases through his country, his world, without a single word of Italian, expecting everyone to listen super hard and figure out what they were trying to say in their words.

And this was a transformative, piercing moment. One of those small conversations that shift an entire lifetime.

Because Rebecca heard how important humility and gentleness are, as we walk in our calling. And patience. And rather than be offended and angry, she listened.

And that listening led to her journeys to Guatemala, to language school, to learn how to speak and read and to listen, in humility. Because there is nothing more humbling than learning another language, setting aside all of one’s smarts and skills and fancy words and becoming like a child.

And we have heard a lot from Martin Luther Kind Jr. these last few weeks. Someone else totally committed to a desperate people suffering from injustice. And we have heard again and again, Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.


And neither Paul nor Martin can ever be accused of being fearful; both of them knew exactly the consequences of their humble, gentle love: beatings, prison and death. Just like Jesus.

Something to think about with a little more understanding and hope as I reflect on yesterday’s picking up trash with a mishmash group of folks and how to go out today, to walk in light and truth, and be heard.




Tuesday, January 14, 2020

Good News


Life is both a precious, unfathomably beautiful gift, and it’s impossible here, on the incarnational side of things. It’s been a very bad match for those of us who were born extremely sensitive. It’s so hard and weird that we sometimes wonder if we’re being punked. It’s filled simultaneously with heartbreaking sweetness and beauty, desperate poverty, floods and babies and acne and Mozart, all swirled together. I don’t think it’s an ideal system. -Anne Lamott

Now after John was arrested, Jesus came to Galilee, proclaiming the good news of God, and saying, “The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God has come near; repent, and believe in the good news.” Mark 1:14

In these days, God taught me as a schoolteacher teaches a pupil. -Saint Ignatius

Repent. In Biblical Hebrew, the idea of repentance is represented by two verbs: שוב shuv (to return) and נחם nacham (to feel sorrow). In the New Testament, the word translated as ‘repentance’ is the Greek word μετάνοια (metanoia), “after/behind one’s mind”, which is a compound word of the preposition ‘meta’ (after, with), and the verb ‘noeo’ (to perceive, to think, the result of perceiving or observing). In this compound word, the preposition combines the two meanings of time and change, which may be denoted by ‘after’ and ‘different’; so that the whole compound means: ‘to think differently after’. Metanoia is therefore primarily an after-thought, different from the former thought; a change of mind and change of conduct, “change of mind and heart”, or, “change of consciousness”. metanoia: change of mind, repentance Original Word: μετάνοια, ας, Part of Speech: Noun, Feminine Transliteration: metanoia Phonetic Spelling: (met-an’-oy-ah) Short Definition: repentance, a change of mind Definition: repentance, a change of mind, change in the inner being.

I remind myself that there are things God has to teach me yet, and ask for the grace to hear them and let them change my mind, change my inner being.

And I was all prepared this morning to write a sweet piece about sleepovers at Mimi’s, and snuggling with Simone and Rosie in the bed boat in front of the fire while Everette slept, and our conversation about purring, and how that was the most perfect purring moment, at complete rest and trust and contentment imaginable.

But instead I have been thinking about breakfast tacos and resolutions with Dre, and about Adam stepping into writing, and about soup and quesadillas with Scott last night, and his quiet questions, and an article I read now five times by Anne Lamont about what is true about life now that she is old and wise, and it’s like she was wandering among my thoughts and she put them into the exact words, except for the bit about dark chocolate, and then, when I read today’s scripture I remembered all of the sermons I have heard about the word “repent,” about how it means to change one’s thinking… and that is what God is doing in me these days, changing my mind, my inner being.

And it’s a good thing and it can be full of joy and freedom and embracing. If one sticks to it, and doesn’t turn back home to look over the new oxen or say goodbye to how it’s always been.
Remember Jesus always calls this repenting stuff “Good news.”

Sunday, December 29, 2019

El Verbo



Cause me to hear Thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in Thee do I trust:
Cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto Thee.
Deliver me, O Lord, Teach me to do Thy will; for Thou art my God: Thy spirit is good;
Quicken me, O Lord, I lift up my soul unto Thee. Psalm 143:7-11

Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.’ John 7:38

So I do several things in my life that make my smart and wise kids feel a little nervous and uncomfortable. One is riding to work down the bike lane on Broadway, because of course this world is full of distracted drivers who are not exactly paying attention, particularly to cyclists in the early morning traffic.

I also welcome guests through WarmShowers, a cyclist thing technically offering a place in the backyard to camp and a warm shower, but in reality, it more often opens up to being able to sleep on the couch and a cup of lentil soup with a grilled cheese sandwich, like last night for my guest riding his bike from Arkansas to California to visit his mother. It was going to freeze last night, so even though I wasn’t that excited about his profile, I didn’t turn him away, the Christmas season and all.

And that still small voice that I am always trying to hear more clearly and quickly.

I mean, today’s verses were written into a chorus I learned, um, exactly 40 years ago, in the living room of Luci and Harold Shaw. And I have been humming these words over and over again ever since then. Up and down the hill outside the refugee camp where I lived in San Jose de Ocoa as I tried to “ralk” Little Nicole to sleep; scrubbing diapers on a cement slab under a mesquite tree at Rancho La Argentina, prayer walking around and around the neighborhood vuelta across Country Club Road by Arrollo Chico with wandering javelinas y coyotes. And even now, as I peddle down the street, trying to dodge potholes and watch for cars pulling out into traffic.

And last night’s guest was a talkative chap, prattling on and on and on about all of the folks he was meeting. And he was shocked that I could speak “Guatemalan.” And that there was more to this border issue than “Obama started the problem when he was in office.” And then he asked some questions about sunrise and was really surprised to find out that dawn was later and nights are longer in the northern hemisphere during the winter. I tried to explain the earth’s tilt and rotation, but that was a little abstract even while twirling an orange.

And as he rode off this morning on his very loaded bike and cart that he can only maneuver five miles an hour, after asking the location of the nearest McDonald’s, I reflected on his visit. John’s visit. He has a name. And besides the obvious answer of the good practice of welcoming the stranger, I hope that I can grow ever tender and soft enough to love the least of these, each of these.

Even Me.

I reflected on his visit even as I chatted with Clay Pell who had called just as John was waving goodbye. Huh. Is Clay’s advice also part of that still small voice?

And what about Nate’s sermon about mixed metaphors today? Seriously, every single word about the Word and the Light and the Life was dead drop perfect. Is that an extra soft heart in action, or am I getting really much better at hearing clearly and quickly that still small voice?

El Verbo is an action word. Can Grace be an action word? Are we To Grace our way through life? To live as verbs within The Verb?

Knowing that this Light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not and will not overcome it.

And those post-service conversations, pulling out the iPhone 5 to insert dinner dates, a celebration of Kwanzaa and new contact numbers while snacking on crackers and cheese slices? How does technology and That Voice mesh? What about all those Casa Alitas *bings forming the background noise of my existence? Where do I draw the line?

The Verb in Genesis 1 is “Let there be…”
            Let there be?
As in something that is always becoming,
            A vision of God Spirit
            Always infusing the creation with something novel,
            Bringing into existence something good,
            Coming among us to do a new thing.

Deliver me O LORD. Teach me to do Thy will.
Quicken me O LORD. I lift up my soul unto Thee.