Saturday, June 18, 2016

But anyone can find out what will happen.

Your way, O God, is holy; who is as great as our God? Psalm 77:13




The Orthodox Christians try to capture this holiness in the hundreds of bright white chapels with bright red arched roofs and crosses pointing upward that fill the small island of Mykonos.

Holy, holy, holy.

Mary Anne has been reading her way through I Kings, which is another reminder that there is nothing new under the sun, as false prophets tried to incite the leader into war against Syria, for instance, and another reminder of God’s ways are not our ways. And Elijah pretty much collapsed after his great battle with the prophets and after the great deluge of rain at last washed away the drought. He traveled for forty days and forty nights in order to lay out his litany of complaints before his God.

And God was not found in the great wind nor in the earthquake, but in the stillness.

And He did not answer the litany.

Rather He told him the next step in his further journey,

And today I reread what I wrote exactly two years ago as I sat sipping coffee in Santiago de Campostela, listening to church bells peal every half hour on the hour. And Aslan did not answer Lucy’s question about what might have been, He only asks her to follow Him, with no promises other than He would be with her.

Richard Rohr summarizes this week’s teachings:
·       It is when we begin to pay attention, and to seek integrity precisely in the task within the task, that we begin to move from the first to the second half of our own lives.

·       The only thing strong enough to move you from the first half of life to the second half is faith in the midst of suffering, the ability to bear darkness and uncertainty, to carry the mystery of paradox.

·       It's not what you do for God; it's what God has done for you. You switch from trying to love God to just letting God love you. And it's at that point you fall in love with God.

·       In the second half of life, you start to understand that life is not only about doing; it's about being.

·       The advantage of those on the further journey is that they can still remember and respect the first language and task. They have transcended but also included all that went before. 

And Mary Anne reminded me that Elijah was one of the two men who joined Jesus during His transfiguration, when His followers were able to see for themselves His glory.

Holy, holy, holy.

Elijah came through that broken place, that place of doubt and suffering and entered the second half of his ministry, that of declaring new things for Israel and his discipleship of Elisha, before he was swept up into the presence of God.

Holy, holy, holy.


Your way, O God, is holy; who is as great as our God? 


Friday, June 17, 2016

Gateway to silence.

Gateway to silence: Guide me on the further journey.

Open my lips, O Lord, and my mouth shall proclaim your praise. Had you desired it, I would have offered sacrifice, but you take no delight in burnt offerings. The sacrifice of God is a troubled spirit; and a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. Psalm 51:16–18

It seems we don't really believe what the cross teaches us--that the pattern of death and resurrection is true for us too, that we must die in a foundational way or any talk of "rebirth" makes no sense. I don't know anything else that's strong enough to force you and me to let go of our ego. Somehow our game has to fall apart. However we've defined ourselves as successful, moral, better than, right, good, on top of it, number one . . . has to fail. It just has to. –Richard Rohr

Holy Ghost, with love divine,
Shine upon this heart of mine:
Chase the shades of night away,
Turn my darkness into day.
Holy Ghost, with power divine,
Cleanse this guilty heart of mine:
Bid my many woes depart,
Heal my wounded, bleeding heart.
Holy Spirit, all divine,
Dwell within this heart of mine:
Cast down every idol throne,
Reign supreme—and reign alone. -A. Reed

Lord, take my heart, for I cannot give it to You. And when you have it, keep it. For I would not take it from You. François Fénelon

We are ditching the pounding sun today, our poor old skin fried yesterday as we walked up and down and all around the countryside with the vague hope that perhaps a bus would pass us by. Smearing sunscreen again and again just didn’t cut it. And it’s a good thing, to sit here quietly overlooking the Adrian Sea, reflecting.

Guide me on the further journey.

And I review my faint Sunday School memory of those maps whose importance I never particularly understood: the first missionary journey of Paul, the second missionary journey of Paul, the third missionary journey of Paul and the journey to Rome; but it seemed really important to Mrs. Wetmore, my Sunday School teacher with the flannel graphs.

Maybe because it reminds us that Paul was a real person, beyond his mythical properties. On his second missionary journey he sailed these very seas. He walked these same stony mountains. Rested under these same saltcedars in respite from this same sun. Drank this same sour wine.

His journey. And I read Thessalonians. And Corinthians. And it seems that Paul too was on a journey, a deepening of His understanding of the Spirit’s guidance and truth. Reign supreme—and reign alone.

Make us strong and courageous, God, to do the new thing, because You are not the God of I was but You are the God I am and You are doing a new thing and that thing is unfolding right now in us will unfold in thousands of places around the world as we walk out our doors and into dangerous lives.

Make us daily pray for character greater than our calling and for a humility great than our work. –Ann Voskamp





And the Joy Dare today was to give thanksgiving for three things about my dad. And yesterday, after I popped into a laundry mat to inquire about washing our oft-worn clothes, I told Mary Anne another story about my parents, how they used to own and run a laundrymat. And how my mother and father washed and folded the clothes of strangers to support their family while they printed Bible lessons in a bunch of different languages and missionary newsletters. My father the valedictorian of Vanderbilt chemical engineering program who was the Navel officer and rocket scientist who worked with NASA and my mother the marketing major from Syracuse University who was the beautiful Bohemian in San Francisco that worked for C&H Sugar.


Humility. I thank my mom and dad for humility lived and breathed day in and day out. For driving up to the Grand Canyon to meet five dirty college students climbing out over the rim and drive them to a hotel room that they rented just so they could take showers and be taken out to dinner before they got into the car to drive all the way to Santa Barbara that night and fall asleep in the sun on the beach. (That was the last time I was sunburned, so I kinda remembered that story yesterday.)

Humility. All those Saturdays hauling a trailer loaded up with flour and beans and boxes of donated shoes behind the blue Chrysler station wagon across the Tijuana border. With four little kids. Saturday after Saturday chasing cockroaches out of pantries, sort of scrubbing out latrines and kneeling in the dirty dust fitting shoes onto very dirty dusty feet.

And as I seek His guidance on this journey, I echo Peter, To Whom shall I go? You have the words of life. Seth Barnes wrote a meditation today entitled, “Say Yes to God.” And it all begins with saying YES. Yes to going on a journey with Jesus that has its roots in Matthew 10. Yes to choosing to travel with a group of people who are as messy as we are. Yes to choosing to go through the pain so that we can walk in freedom. And yes to setting the captives free. We need to know that this YES in our spirits has some steel in it. Our lives go by so quickly. What else are we going to do but follow our Creator?






Guide me on the further journey.

Do I make my plans according to the flesh, ready to say, “Yes, yes” and “No, no” at the same time? As surely as God is faithful, our word to you has not been Yes and No.  For the Son of God, Jesus Christ, whom we proclaimed among you, was not Yes and No, but in Him it is always Yes. For all the promises of God find their Yes in Him. That is why it is through him that we utter our Amen to God for His glory. 2 Corinthians 1:17-20

Guide me on the further journey.
Yes and Amen.




Wednesday, June 15, 2016

In Greece the sea blue blends into the distant mountain blue which traces a jagged line across the blue sky.


How beautiful on the mountains, are the feet of the messenger announcing peace, of the messenger of good. Isaiah 52:7

So yesterday we heard a lot about war…the battles that wrecked destruction again and again on these stone villages layered among the olive trees and vineyards of white eating grapes on rocky hillsides: from the destruction of Troy after the abduction of Helen, through the back and forth triumphs and losses to Persia, the Peloponnesian War which ended in the fall of Athens to Sparta and then  Alexander the Great declared himself King of the World; the crushing by Macedon, the sacking by Rome, the pillaging by Goths, the invading by Slavs and Normans, the occupying by Venetians and Ottoman Turks which included the blasting destruction of the Parthenon where the Turks were storing the explosions (the guide added that “the Italians should have known better”) and the final insult upon insult, the hauling away of everything still standing by Lord Elgin in order to decorate his summer home. 

We couldn’t exactly understand our tour guide who kept drifting into French, but we could see the remaining shards of marble as we made our way through the new museum and climbed up the stone path leading to the Acropolis that has been used for defense for over 5000 years. That is a long time. War and rumor of wars have haunted mankind since the very beginning.

And as we stood in front of the stadium constructed for the first Olympics in 776 BC, we reheard the story of the defeat of Darius, the king of Persia, at Marathon, and how  Pheideppides ran 42 kilometers kilometers to Athens to bring the good news, and then collapsed, dead.

Beautiful feet, indeed.

Yes, echo the hills, there is nothing new under the sun.

In the afternoon, after a quick meat pie and cappuccino coffee, we headed across town, weaving our way through narrow market streets filled with Byzantines icons, household plasticwares, and heaps of shoes in plastic bags from China, crossed the main road of Tsaldari Panagi carefully obeying traffic signals, strode past the archways that said “Open” overhead in green letters with little red lights outside each closed door in the hallway, to a place sort of pointed out on a carefully folded map. We found another door, with “Samaria: Jesus loves you” painted brightly on the wall, and pushed our way through the heaps of jackets and coats and to walk up the narrow stairs where we not only discovered rooms filled with small tables crowded with refugees from Syria and Afghanistan, but we also those beautiful hands and feet of peace bearers as well.

Samaria’s founder is a South Korean pastor and his wife and his three daughters. They smiled so broadly when Mary Anne explained her last name and its rich Korean heritage. There were lots of other folks, with aprons wrapped around and large spoons preparing the day’s meal. A low rumble of controlled chaos simmered underneath all of the weary smiles. We met a young strong German on the stair who is overseeing other German kids who come to volunteer for a few months at a time. We asked him what he did, and he answered, “Everything, Anything they need.” They serve food to between three and five hundred people a day. But they serve a lot more than food and clothes and medical services upstairs. They served goodness and hope in the midst of badness and hopelessness.

I mostly hung out with Abdullah and Hajar and their ten-month-old son. They left Afghanistan three or four months ago. They are both engineers, but now spend their time serving, both in teaching English, she to the women, he to the men, but mostly they serve by “giving advise.” Abdullah said that’s what people mostly need; they have no idea of what the future holds nor how to begin to walk in that direction. What direction? They do not know. Abdullah and Hajar do not know. Hajar trembles as she frets over her old mother and his old mother and her little sister whom they left behind. Did they do the right thing in leaving? Did they abandon their loved ones or are they building a future for their son? She is too anxious to stay in her tent camp so she comes here for courage, for the love and for the songs and for the bubble bottles that all the children have to play with. Bubbles fill the air.





We are now Facebook friends. And we have the pastor’s email address. What they need are books. I told her to send me a list. I slid twenty euros into her notebook that she pushed back, but I insisted. Things always come up, and sometime you will think, What I need is twenty euros. She said that they often did not have enough money for the grocery store. Could I find an organization to help? I said I would look around. I said that you may use my name as a sponsor, if anyone asks, you have my name.

And then we prayed.

For the LORD God is both sun and shield; He will give grace and glory. Psalm 84:10

May He be the sun who shines on your path, giving you clarity and wisdom and light for each day as you walk forward. And may He be the shield around your beloved family left behind, and around you, as you serve in kindness and strength. May He cover you in His grace, and may you see His glory.

I did not want to leave. I wanted to join the young Germans on their sleeping bags on the floor. If nothing else, I could listen to stories. That’s how Andres in Spain shares God’s love, by listening to stories. But we walked down the narrow staircase and out the door. Just a few blocks away there was another long, long feeding line, someone passing out small Styrofoam bowls of rice and a clump of brown something to people who then each sat alone in a small field of worn grass.
  
And now Mary Anne and I are off once more, across the dark turquoise Aegean Sea. I am still adjusting to this programmed, every-place-I-will-lay-my-head-tonight-has-a-name sort of travelling, but it was very nice to be picked up in the hotel lobby and transported to the ferry dock by a smiling Greek whose mother is an English teacher.

Mary Anne just reminded me that there are thousands of Greek islands. So many fairly bleak harsh brownish grey mountains with a few low shrubs and a few greenish grey olive trees, the gift from Athena. Sometimes there are a few low rock walls that speak of fertility and cultivation. But not so much.

It is difficult to not think of Paul and his travels through these very waters. Sometimes he stayed a year and a half, like in Corinth, and sometimes he did not. Now a cross-topped dome stands on each street corner.

And how does life come to pass? There are those who till deep down in the soil, removing the rocks to heft into protective terraces. And those who prepare the soil, sifting clay and sand and stirring in nutrients, ready for sowing. And those who pass through, tossing seed hither and thither; rather heedless of where it lands. That is not their responsibility. And still others follow, watering and weeding and pruning. At last, there are those come in with great baskets and harvest with celebration and song and dance late into the night. And yet, once again, the cycle begins again, chopping up the empty stalks and letting the land go fallow.

There is nothing new under the sun.

And I am reading Richard Rohr and thinking a lot about his idea of the transition between the first half and the second half of life, as we leave off forming and shaping the outside pot and consider deeply with what we are to fill it with, letting go of the small self and being overtaken by the freedom of the Great Mystery. And for what have I been made? What is to pour out with overflowing of this earthen vessel? What is my role in the great cycle? The great dance across the starry expanse of time?

And as I watch gulls skim the smooth waveless surface, I think of my photos. I tend towards the panoramic view…push the little button and an arrow moves swiftly across the scene. And then there are the Marco photos, the photos that made me fall in love with the children of Peru, the street-livers of Los Angeles, and the quiet souls of China. Up close. Watching. Listening. Eyes meeting eyes. Intentional noticing.

Last night, I determined to look into Hajar’s eyes. The whole time. Undistracted.

May I truly listen. And look.

Unlike a seagull scrabbling for scraps of leftovers on the sand or dipping down for a quick snap.

As Andres reminded me, I don’t even have to tell my story.

And as I sit overlooking the timeless sea, wondering how to walk with beautiful feet, Bing, I receive a message. Moments ago, from Andres.  Andres who I was just now thanking in my heart wrote me a letter, "Hola,hoy hace dos años que te he conocido a ti y a tu hija."

It was two years ago today that I first knelt down and asked God to reveal His power and love by healing his leg. And then I stood up, walked down the stairs and rode off, up that great big, big mountain. And neither of our lives have ever been the same.

God only knows His place and His time. 

Peace.  

Peace, child.



Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Under the shadow of the acropolis.

Come now and see the works of God, how wonderful He is in his doing toward all people. Psalm 66:4

Mercy and truth have met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other. Psalm 85:10

So Mary Anne really had it in her heart to visit a refugee camp. And even though he looked puzzled, the taxi cab driver told us that the old airport had been converted into a tent city. And even though the front desk clerk had never yet fielded this request, she told us how to take the tram far out of town. We figured the worst anyone could do is tell us to go away. 


 And the wind tossed the dust and the small tents of five thousand Afghanistans about ruthlessly. A row of port-a-potties lined up by the pavement. Inside the terminal a meal is served once a day. We spoke to a twelve-year-old girl who is learning both German and English. She has been here, waiting, for five years. But a group of kids were kicking a soccer ball around with a Finlander and his son. And an Italian laughed and taught them silly songs. Mostly they wanted to pile up into his big welcoming arms and to clamor up onto his back and pound on his head like a drum. And we smiled at the mommas and admired their beautiful children clinging to their knees. 






And then, after only a bit of time, we turned away, happy/sad. 

Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute. 

Speak up for the rights of the poor and needy.

And the news reaches us here, even here in Athens. Of brokenness and pain and smashed hopes from all people.

Dear Lord God, may I be a light shining brightly, strongly, clearly, rather than one who curses the darkness.