Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Watering my garden with tears

Come close to God and He will come close to you. Realise that you have sinned and get your hands clean again. Realise that you have been disloyal and get your hearts made true once more. As you come close to God you should be deeply sorry, you should be grieved, you should even be in tears. Your laughter will have to become mourning, your high spirits will have to become heartfelt dejection. You will have to feel very small in the sight of God before He will set you on your feet once more. James 4:8-10

Because He is so very, very big.

There is a difference (big) between humiliation and humbling. Humiliation is when someone stands back (far away) and mocks and innumerates flaws and points fingers and maybe even throws rocks.  And it creates feelings of rejection and hopelessness.

Humility on the other hand, is a realization of Truth. It is a clearing of the fog by our own choosing. Realizing as in becoming fully aware of (something) as a fact; understanding clearly. As I come close to God, stepping into the light, the darkness and stains and yes, foolishness of my disloyalty and sin become obvious. The ultimate “I could have had a V8” moment.

But a moment of embracing welcoming and hope for the future. Come My child, I have been waiting for you, seeking you, stopping at nothing (arms lifted up) to bring you into Myself.

The Pharisees humiliate; Jesus knelt down and scrabbled in the dust.

May my heart be true.